Whats beef?

Well well... Its that time again. It has come to my attention that some kids just dont get the point. They seem to think that its human nature to focus on what the next person is doing... And to be honest, I find it quite funny. It never fails, whenever a 'get-together' with a bunch of homosexuals takes place, theres always some type of drama that has to be involved... Well this year, I just happened to get caught up up the 'beef'. So yeah, I threw a few slick comments towards someone and that particular person paid it dust, but someone who had nothing to do with the issue decided to catch feeling and its been nothing but hell from that point on. Just to clarify, this hell has been on the other person cuz clearly i'm unbothered and will forever be...

They decided it would be cute to tell a bunch of other fags what took place way back in the winter time and ended up fabricating the story in the process. Yeah I tried to withdraw money from 2 different ATM's and for some reason my card wouldn't work... And i'm not saying there was no money on the card because CLEARLY I used the same card on my way home from the 'gathering'. It just so happened that the ATM's in Bitchville Alabama were on that bullshit and there was no Capital One Branches anywhere in sight (trust me... I searched high and low) so I was shit out of luck... Now had I known my ATM card would be going thru the motions at 2AM I woulda gotten cash back when we went to Wal-Mart earlier that day.... But it aint like they sent me a text message saying 'Your card will not be accessible after 1AM' but anyway... So yeah, I borrowed $5 to get into the run down club full of dykes and trannies and one of my good Ju Ju's bought me a few drinks... Woopdie Doo! If anyone should be worried about THAT, it should be me and the Ju Ju that paid my way into the club...

BUT WAIT!!! I've been known to take trips in the past. And each and every trip except that one, I've paid my own way 100% and I dare a fag to say differently because I got the receipts. Now chew on that!

Now... I find it quite funny how you aint even got yo shit together but got the nerve to try to throw shade about my funds... Get with the program, I'm working 1 full time job... 42 hours a week... Drivin back and forth to work and still havin the money to pay the cable bill, gas bill, buy my cigs, put gas in the car, pay the car note, insurance, buy dog food for Lil Mama, pay for my XBox Live Gold Membership and the list goes on. And if my Ju Ju wanted his money back, he has my number and could simply call and ask for them and wouldn't get the run around about it either.

**WARNING: FIERCE READ AHEAD... PROCEED WITH CAUTION**

But lets talk about how the same person that paid my way into the club bought you a bus ticket and took you into their spare bedroom when you had no place to stay. Lets talk about how you workin 2 jobs and still walking to work and still sleeping in that spare bedroom. Lets talk about how you have no business what so ever. Lets talk about how you havin to make due with mediocre job opportunities because your speech impediment wont allow you to get a REAL job making REAL money. I can see why you mad... And you will remain that way, but I guarantee you this... You aint neva gotta worry about me taking time out of my busy schedule to come spend time with you on your birthday again... Call the judies that stood you up when they said they would bring you some food to serve. OOP! Now thats beef!

A not so Happy Holiday... Kinda Sorta...

I know I know... It seems like its been forever since I blogged, but i'm still here. I aint goin nowhere no time soon. LOL. Alot has been going on lately... Im pissed because here it is, almost Christmas and I have no extra cash to get gifts for the one I love. Its not all that bad though, because I dont really expect to get anything myself. My Mom sent me a MP4 player but I already have a phone that plays music and video's so I guess it'll just collect dust. The part i'm really upset about is the fact that I wont be able to get my boyfriend anything. He knows I love him but just once I would like to be able to get him something other than my love and affection, but i'm not gonna beat myself up over it because I kno trouble dont last always. 

He already gave me my Christmas Gift and I love it! Its something i've been hinting at for the longest, and to be honest, I was gonna wait till I got some extra cash to get it myself, so I'm extremely happy he got it for me. 

An XBox360! Hell Fuckin Yeah! I've been wanting one of these bad boys since I had the chance to experience the thrill myself. Now I can happily say, i'm caught up with the rest of the world. LOL. Right now I only have one game, Tekken 6 but hopefully that will change real soon. The only problem is, On Sundays, this thing will get no play... Especially during football season. (That comes with dating a DIE-HARD Cowboys Fan). By the way... How 'Bout Dem Boys?! Shuttin them 'Undefeated' (giggles) Saints right on DOWN. The End! LOL! I know the New Orleans fans are sooo pissed right now, but guess what, they'll get over it!

Anyway... Besides the gift situation, I'm worried about one of my closest friends/little brother. Its been about 3 weeks since i've heard from him. Now, he's been going thru alot. Dealing with his mother being ill and doing what is needed to get his life back in order. I mean... he is really making a change, and for the better too! And i'm so proud of him. But recently things went hay-wire and its not necessarily his fault. I'm not gonna go into detail because thats one of my best friends and I wouldn't dare but his business out on the internet because I KNOW he wouldn't do it to me... But like I said, its been 3 weeks and I haven't heard from him. At first, I tried calling his phone and the calls kept going straight to voicemail, but then, earlier this week, I called and his phone actually rang, but still no answer. I just pray to God that he is alright because its the Holidays and I wouldn't want nothing bad to happen to anyone that I care so deeply about.

I ask that everyone reading this keeps him in your prayers because I'm really worried. Just think... How would you feel if someone you used to talk to everyday just suddenly 'fell off the face of the earth'. And I've been having dreams night after night about him calling and I even had one where he actually rang my doorbell. Ch.... they seemed so real too. But then I wake up, grab the phone and see that he still hasn't called. 

Well, I guess thats it... I want to wish each of yall a Merry Christmas (just incase I dont blog on Christmas Day) but I'll definitely blog again before New Years rolls around. LOL.

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Ending it all...

Ok... So recently I've been seeing this bullshit on the news about this lady that attempted to put a hit out on her husband... The gag is, she hired an Undercover Cop as her hitman... STUPIDITY! Then when the cops told her that her husband had been killed she put on a big ass front, crying and shit, acting like she was surprised... But then while in the interrogation room they spooked her ass by bringing in the Undercover Cop she hired to kill her husband, then bringing in her husband to complete the deal...

Now... Theres a few things that run thru my mind everytime I see this story... Why didn't she just file for a divorce and continue her life as a free woman? Im sorry but I just dont understand the logic in hiring someone to kill your husband when you feel the relationship has reached a dead end... 

Now i'm not gonna lie, at times I feel like im trapped in my relationship for a number of reasons but I do know that if I come to the point where I've had enough, I can pack my shit, and head back to Atlanta where i'll have a place to stay and a job lined up... Its not that fucking serious... I would never put a hit out on my boyfriend just because I was tired of being with him... I would simply let him know that I feel the relationship isn't going anywhere and call it quits. Now if he was to put his hands on me, I would call up some cousins and have them come have a 'chat' with him but I would never go as far as killing the man simply because i'm unhappy... There are plenty of fish in the sea and I know i'm not an ugly nigga, so I know... ESPECIALLY IN ATLANTA... It would be no biggie for me to find someone else.

I just wish people would think before making foolish decisions... Now this dumb bitch is gonna spend the rest of her life in jail for being a dumb ass and attempting to put a hit out on her husband. And then what makes the situation even worse is that when she met ol dude, she was an escort... Basically that muthafucka changed her life and this is how she repays him? If you ask me, that bitch got issues... He said himself that they've been going thru a number of problems, from her constantly lying about stupid shit to faking a pregnancy that her own MOTHER knew about. REALLY?? WTF?!?! If you ask me, he was stupid for staying with her this long... after faking the pregnancy I would've sent that bitch on her way and told her not to look back... But I guess he wanted to make it work, and believe me... I know how that feels...

There has been plenty of times I was ready to call it quits, but after all we've been thru, I decided to talk it out with my boyfriend and come to a conclusion and we're still together today! 

Wake up America!!! You cant have someone killed just because you're unhappy... Either talk the shit out or call it quits... plain and simple... 

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Seddy has been locked up?

So last night I went into a certain chatroom just to chat it up with my ju-ju's for a while. After recent events, I realized that I needed to spend more time doing things that would better myself... Now dont get me wrong, I've been a member of that particular chat room for some time now (since like 2006) and I've spent many hours in there reading, laughing, watchin cam shows, putting on cam shows (PG-13 Rated!!!) and the list goes on. But that time has came and gone... I realize that more and more of the people I used to chat it up with were also limiting their time in there and I began to ask myself 'Why am I spending so much time with these punks?'.

Over the years, That room has gone downhill... They called themselves upgrading but, in fact, it wasn't an upgrade at all... More like a downgrade. The room goes into a foolish mode where you cant view cams anymore and if you try... you have to refresh only your name doesn't refresh... it stays... and after a while the number next to the user list is in the hundreds (sometimes the THOUSANDS)... Its really a mess... Then these so-called mod's get off on banning the kids for speaking their mind... I look at it like this...

Ever since I started going in that chat room, the kids have been reading... And back in the day, I dont even think there were rules... Some of the stuff I used to see going up my screen used to leave me speechless. DEAD SERIOUS!!! And after a while, I started to join in on the reading... BUT that only started when the kids would try and throw some slick shit my way. That room is so hilarious, if someone sends you a PM asking you to show your ass, and you refuse... 9 times outta 10, the next message you get will have something to do with how ugly you are. Now my question is this... If im so ugly... why are you asking to see my ass? 

So many fools in that room get off on starting, and keeping up mess... I only chat with a certain few and I want to keep it that way... I've always been told not to have so many friends/associates because they're hard to keep up with... After some years, I understood what they were telling me... But thats another blog for another day. LOL

Back to the original topic... These so called mods have put limitations on the reading you can do... If you say something they dont agree with... You can be banned anywhere from an hour to a YEAR (depending on who banns you). Now due to recent actions during the infamous 'Clam Bake' one of the mods were stripped of her powers. *cackles* So the banning has leveled out...

But anyway, Last night was my first time going in the chat room in like a week. Almost immediately someone one of my ju-ju's said 'The kids (josh) have been saying you were locked up'. Then about 20 minutes later another comes with 'Seddy!!!! When you get out?'. 

Now first of all, I have no clue why JOSH has my name on her mind. This bitch is one of the most ugliest bitches i've came across... She's some queen from the Yahoo days who suddenly migrated to T4S after being ran out off BGC and even the kids on A4A weren't using... See Below

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Even she herself said 'I cant believe i'm back'. And the word floating around is she looks uglier in person. LMAO!!!! I would think that someone this 'phisically challenged' would have no business trying to talk about anyone, but she is one of the main ones that are forever trying to keep up mess.... Like i've always said... I guess when you have no life, no friends and no man, you have to use your spare time to try and give the better girls too much... But the sad part is, she gets shut down EVERY TIME. Miss Josh, i you're reading this... Its time for a change, its almost 2010... This shit has gone on for long enough!

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Welcome to my blog!!!

To start things off, I want to thank you for taking the time out of your busy day to fuck with a nigga like me. You didn't have to, but you did! For a while now i've had trouble finding someone to vent to... its not really the problem of 'venting' per-say... Its 'venting' without being judged... These days, everybody wants to be a critic. Now dont get me wrong, I like critisizm as much as the next person, but dont criticize me like you're sitting on top of the world.

Yeah, I know I've lived a wild 24 years, but at the same time... who hasn't had their wild nights... It comes with growing up... You live and you learn... And thats one of my favorite quotes. Most folks dont even know what those words mean... They think they're so much better than everyone else when, in fact, half the shyt coming out of their mouth's be lies and fairy tales... I dont have the time to be telling lies about my life and trying to remember the lie I told later down the world... Whats the point in that? I mean really...

Moving right along... I know some people will have no idea what the words in my banner mean... So i'll explain them the best I can... The words 'Real, Unbothered and Unscripted' are the words I use to describe my life... Real means just that. Real... Why be fake? Im not living my life to please anybody... If someone doesnt like something I do or say, they're more than welcome to continue with their daily lives... The only person who should be worried about me, is me... (and my family - but to an extent).

Unbothered is a word I picked up in a chatroom... The reason I started using it so much is because thats exactly what I am... Unbothered... Unbothered by the haters... Unbothered by those that talk shit about me behind my back... Unbothered by the foolishness of this homosexual lifestyle... Just completely UNBOTHERED, and thats really how everyone should be... Why stress yourself over what someone else has to say... at the end of the day they're not paying your bills, they're not putting food in your fridge, they're not putting clothes on your back and chances are, they're not laying next to you at night....

And finally... Unscripted... anybody with an education should know that anything 'Scripted' isnt REAL... and that would opt-out the 1st word in my slogan wouldnt it?

So thats is... Its now 12:13am and I'm about to go get in the shower and get in the bed with my boyfriend that I love so much... Yeah at times we may not see eye to eye, and sometimes he gets on my everlasting nerves, but he's been there for me when others were not and for that... I thank God every single day for putting him in my life.

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